waiting on God.

here's a list of somethings i'm waiting on God for:

1. healing/wisdom for doctors.
2. finances/provision for a car/school.
3. favor in a situation with school records.
4. providing me with a community/group of good guy friends. i really, really miss guy friends. i'm asking God for opportunities and doors to be opened for guy friends.
5. everything about my future relationship/dating/engagement/marriage.
6. provision/guidance on job/money stuff.
7. details on whenever it's the right time/moment to move out.
8. continued doors to open for pursing my dreams--wanting to figure out where to go/how to get there when it comes to ministry stuff.

i'm definitely in one of the most uncertain seasons of my life. i'm still recovering from learning/dealing/processing recent health issues & everything. i remember thinking at one point a couple of months back "i'm a college grad. single. 22. jobless. carless. and living at my parent's house" and feeling like i was never ever going to get out of that place. i was convinced i was never going to be able to get through this hurdle. i think more than anything, it hit my pride and i hated that i wasn't in the same place as other people. part of it was jealousy, because i feel like i've done a lot of great things & made the most of my college time & everything and people who seem irresponsible are moving forward... part of it was just doubt about whether or not God even really cared. i struggled a lot with questions. but the life lessons i've learned and the perspective God has given me are priceless. i am learning the beauty of waiting. i'm learning that breakthrough comes after breakdown. i'm learning healing. i'm becoming whole.

He's faithful.

My heart says yes to the things of the Father.

I'm going to be fine. Everything's going to be fine.

He will be all He says He is.

His promises are true.

I will wait.

I will have hope.

I will be expectant.

I will see Him.