there is so much beauty in these days.

i have no idea where i'm going, all i know is that my God is there.

and i know that my God's realness isn't dependent on me believing or not believing in Him.

i know that i've never felt happier than the moments i spent in the projects hugging babies or on the streets hugging the homeless.

i know that i want to use my creativity to make people feel beautiful with makeup and hair and style and to somehow use words and the physical to work together to create this chain reaction of people who used to only know insecurity to know confidence.

i know that at the end of the day, every single person on this planet is loved by God and that is freaking life changing and i wish i grasped how life changing that was sooner.

i know that i don't want to be known for anything other than kindness and respect and being grace-filled and loving.

i know that i don't want to be rich or to be poor, but to have what i need for the moment.

i know that i want to do everything in my power to never disrespect another.

i know that i don't want to waste my days.

when people ask specifics, i do not have answers, but i possess peace, faith, and hope and nothing can stop those three things from keeping me rooted in the solid ground that is my God.

He won't delay. He will come through. He will be close to me always.

He will speak for me. He will defend me. He will lift my head.

He will put a new song in my mouth. He will turn my darkness into light. He will rejoice over me. He will delight in me.

He will be for me. He will always change my heart to mirror His more closely.

i don't always see clearly. i don't always feel joy. i don't always walk in this "Jesus is great and so if life!" attitude. i struggle and i ask and i fall short and i cry myself to sleep sometimes because i KNOW God is enough, but i don't feel like He's enough and i battle feelings vs. truth and i don't always speak life when given opportunities to do so.

i am human in all ways. my humanity gets in the way of my spirituality, of course.

but i just know that my days are going to be marked by the faithfulness of my God. i know that He's going to be all He says He is.

He has delivered me. He has shown up for me.

I wonder what He's done for you.