so this is love.

All night long on my bed
I looked for the one my heart loves;
I looked for him but did not find him.
I will get up now and go about the city,
through its streets and squares;
I will search for the one my heart loves.
So I looked for him but did not find him.

The watchmen found me
as they made their rounds in the city.
"Have you seen the one my heart loves?"

Scarcely had I passed them
when I found the one my heart loves.
I held him and would not let him go
till I had brought him to my mother's house,
to the room of the one who conceived me.

Daughters of Jerusalem, I charge you
by the gazelles and by the does of the field:
Do not arouse or awaken love
until it so desires.
Song of Songs 3:1-5

This passage of Scripture has come up so many times lately through different devotions and prayer times. I long so badly for love and marriage and to have that season of my life, but I know that now is not the time. Now is not the right time because I still must become the right one for him....I have to work on things and get to the point where God is ready for us to enter into that time. I just think about him every single day and I wonder what he's doing and who he is dreaming of becoming. I wonder if I've seen him, perhaps had a conversation with him. Perhaps many conversations and lots of interaction. Perhaps not even a glance. I know that God has called me to be with someone in ministry of some sort, He has made that progressively clearer...I think being a pastor's wife is just as much of a calling as being a pastor. It isn't easy to raise a family and model Biblical womanhood in such a way knowing people are always watching. That is why I love, value, apperciate, and respect Mrs. A and Mrs. R so much--thank you both for your constant encouragement to me as a youth. As a young woman who is wanting so badly marriage and children and being a homemaker. You both serve your husbands so faithfully and your children, who are all so precious by the way, and I so apperciate both of you ladies!! But I do ask your prayers as I live in this time of my life, the period of waiting. That I would wait with a pure heart. With an open heart. And pray for him. That he would remain pure as well and focused on the things God has for him.

Also, I'm interested in hearing the stories of how ya'll met your husbands...so please share!! : )