Patience...

...seems to be a common theme in my life these days.

Patience in waiting for the guy God has for me.
Patience in enjoying being single and becoming the right girl.

Then there's patience with people who have different opinions and reasons and ideas and thoughts and ways then I do.
And different responses and conversations and etc. then I do.

And also, which fits in especially today, is the patience during those "you are absolutely driving me insane" moments. I've spent my summer nannying (and Thursday is my "last" day...sad!) two precious little girls. 3 and 4. potty training. LOTS OF SPILLS. accidents. things like oh, poopy diapers being taken off during nap time and spread EVERYWHERE on everything and 7 spots on the carpet (apologies for details.). breaking up fights just to turn around and break up another one. I have majorly felt as close to a mother as I ever have these last couple weeks. I found myself today with the words "I'm really sick of telling you girls what to do and to stop fighting and you're absolutely driving me crazy today" coming out. I had cleaned up so many spills. And I had put them in time out one to many times and......I lost patience. I sat down after apologizing (do they even understand that I over-reacted, much less what it meant that I was sorry?) and thought about the flip side. so many cuddles. so many hugs. the way every. single. time. i walk into the house they run up to me and hug me and scream my name and don't want to let me go. i thought about two cute little curly haired girlies who love wearing dresses and doing my hair. i thought about reading to them and rocking them as they had colds. i thought about their smiles and their laughter during pool time and the way they actually do show love for each other and it's priceless. then I got to thinking...

about how God is patient. I thought about how God must feel like we do sometimes, just really not understanding why His children do things, but then sitting back and only seeing the good in us....never giving up....never over-reacting...never falling short in the moments when His children are messing up....I can't even think of the combination of words, just....God is patient. ALWAYS ALWAYS ALWAYS.

I am thankful tonight for patience.
For learning patience.
And for having an unbelievably patient God who never. ever. ever. gives up on me.
Who would never raise His voice at me.
And, I'm thankful for two sweet, curly haired girlies named Taylor and Tana.