Oh, life is so insanely beautiful. And busy. And wonderful. And weary.

I'm tired.
Really, really tired.
I feel like I get this worn out every February and I really don't know why.
It would seem like I'd be very refreshed at this point, since it's a new year and all.
But here I am, on the verge of being burnt out, but knowing this season and time is only temporary. Every prayer I've prayed asking God to send people to bless and refresh me have been answered above and beyond (just because that's how God works.) and so, amongst all of this, I'm feeling good.

I am balancing relationships, my calling, ministry, prayer, catching up, excelling in school (which makes me feel fantastic. I've made A's on all my tests so far!!!), meeting people, building new relationships, seeing God work and do crazy big things, and doing the work of the Lord.

There have been numerous times in the past couple weeks where I've found myself realizing life would be much easier just being that Christian that loves God and leaves it at that. But faith without works is dead and while that doesn't mean exhausting yourself (which I've done on my own achord), it does mean having to deny yourself daily.

My dear friend and I have had the same conversation a lot lately about this whole idea of blessing people and serving versus doing it to have something done in return. It's definitely something God is teaching me, examining my heart in every single circumstance and not acting on something unless I truly do have my heart behind it.

It's a process. All of this is a process.

Tonight will be fun.
I love the people in my life with all my heart,
but the good Lord knows I need my time to reflect.
It's coming.

This is only temporary....

love to you all.