There is something about this time time of year.

I always get overwhelmed to my breaking point, stressed, annoyed, burnt out, etc.

I go full force the last half of the year, but cannot seem to make it happen in the beginning.

I'm so over it.

Stupid church cliches and sermons that preach a Jesus "who picks up your pieces" like it's nothing more than a one-way street for good things to happen in your life.

I'm sick of it.

I'm sick of the people that come into this school and "preach the Word of God"....really? Some of you are doing a terrible job and I feel bad for the people who don't have a strong background and a firm foundation....the ones who sit in that building on Tues/Thurs and such and hear all this crap like it's the only truth.

I am kinda bitter about it, thanks for asking.

It just bothers me. I hate convocation. It started this cycle last February and I'm angry that it aided in it this time too.

I'm going to fight this time, because I know God's calling me to a lifestyle of this, whatever this is right now in my life, and so I'm going to fight it. And I'm going to perserve this time and not just ignore life like I did last year, but still.

Sometimes I don't know why God wants me here and I wonder why I'm not in Scotland with my cousin, or Australia or California, or anywhere where my needs are being met and I'm meeting needs, but no one knows me.

Know one can say what someone siad last night "I was only your friend because I knew you'd go above and beyond and I was wondering when I could make you reach that limit."

Really???

People suck sometimes.

And you know, somedays I'm not so sure about being called into a lifestyle of situations like that where God calls me to give and to love and all that, but what about the people who take it for granted? Who use me as a minister of God? Really?

I'm just losing patience

and I freakin feel like I'm losing my sanity at times lately

Like I'm going absolutely insane or something

Anyways

I need peace

order

and a freakin vacation!!!!!