[vulnerbility]

I'd like to think I'm not the only one feeling this much uncertainty at the moment....I thought once you GOT to college, you understood. You at least had an idea. I mean, I have even declared a major, and that has put me absolutely....nowhere.

I don't know anything for certain right now except that God sees what I can't.

But, my selfish (thank you, conviction, for hanging out with me over Christmas break and revealing my sinful heart through a conflict with a friend.) heart says that ISN'T ENOUGH.

What's enough is to know who & when & HOW & why...
To what extent will I be hurt? To what degree will the conflict arise? To what exact day will I meet him & know him? Just how exactly will I get a job at a school. Oh the SCHOOL. What school am I going to be teaching at? And my students, well I want to see how my first year will go. How will I manage?

This gives way to anxiety/fear/worry (temptation) which gives way to worrying and leaning on my own understanding (the sin) which can and will lead to things much worse.

I am grateful for the sermon today.
The fact I was so unable to focus like I normally do shows that conviction was most definitely sitting right next to me today, telling me ( yet, so gracefully....) what must be done.

APATHY. COMPLACENCY. WORRY. ANXIETY. SELFISHNESS.
PRIORITIES. MOTIVATION/PRO-ACTIVITY. BELIEF. JOY/HOPE/FAITH. SELFLESSNESS.
[[complacency destroys faith.]]

Sweet Savior---
may I trust that You know best for me,
that my plans for me aren't as good as Yours.
Show me areas of my heart that need to change,
thank You for mercy in dealing with sin.
Thank You for people in my life. Bless them
tenfold. Jesus, take me. I want to be
used by You this semester, I offer it
before You. You do see what I can't,
and You do know what I don't.
Jesus, thank You.




amazing grace.
how sweet it is....
blind, now w/ sight.
lost, now found.

my chains are gone.

please pray faithful and dear friends for me.
please also leave your requests or email me
hsalsb00@leeu.edu