Dr. J, my theology professor, is one of the most respectable people I've ever come in contact with.
He's brilliant.
He's witty.
He's gifted.
He knows the Lord.
But more than any of these things, I respect most how serious he takes his position. His calling (if you will.) and his job. I, probably like many college students, find myself asking the question so often, "If you hate what you do so much why do you do it?" I go to a Christian liberal-arts college in TN, but there are some professors here who legit seem to hate their job and because of that, it shows. To us as individuals. To the classroom as a whole. It bothers me a lot to be honest, because I for one am paying a freakin lot of money to attend this place and so if spending time educating me bothers you (as it sometimes appears to be) please either leave it at the door of the classroom or move on.
Dr. J just loves what he does. He loves us. Alot. It's his job to educate us. To move us to think outside of what we've been taught for years by churches.
Side note: I don't know, "the church" is something that I as a 20-year-old college student struggles with on a pretty consistent basis. By no means is that to say I'm abandoning it or something, but I don't know. This world is made up of broken and needy people, pastors included. I personally have thrived under the leadership of a pastor who is very openly broken.
I want to be openly broken. I want to be openly needy. I want to be openly aware of how weak I am.
Anyway, end side note.
The point is, Dr. J makes me want to be a theology major to be honest.
I've been struggling these last couple weeks a great deal on this whole major thing.
God told me I was going to be a teacher.
BUT, God never said it was in the classroom setting (I just assumed.)
And He never said it was going to be a permanent thing.
So, here I sit at a Christian liberal-arts university in Cleveland, TN asking myself the question of should I continue as an education major? Should I change to something else? What do I really and truly want to do with my life? I want to love people. I want to write a book (which I already began....thank you Jesus for the beauty of words and for giving me a way with them.) I want to teach. What? Lots of things. About prayer, about hope, about reality, about purpose, about NOT WASTING YOUR LIFE.
So anyway, I sit here, and I'm surrounded by some people who sincerely want the very best for me and that's a comforting feeling. Dr. J doesn't have to welcome me into his life, he could come in on Mon/Wed at 3:00 teach than walk out. But instead he's genuinely trying to help me decide.
This comforts me, because I'm having a whole lot of people try to tell me what to do. Most of them without me asking, and the truth of that matter is, I'm going to be in God's will if I'm an education major or a theology major......or am I? That's for another day.
God bless you my friends.
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