I miss O.C. nights.

When no one was "dating" and everyone just sat/layed/hung out in that living room

Cracking up

eating popcorn

drinking tea and mountain dew

when it was just me and Kelsey (and sometimes Jaida) with the boys.

when it was just fun and good and nothing was stupid and no one had tension between them.

I know that things happen and it makes people grow so it's "worth it" or it makes sense or whatever and we can't spend our lives thinking about "what ifs and maybes" but man.

I want those nights back.

I want to live the past 2 1/2 months or so having never have left those O.C. nights.

No dating, no spring break madness. No ridiculousness.

I cannot find myself in the same place I did this past semester.

How do I prevent that? Don't know.

What is my specific purpose in people's lives? I want to know what God seeks me to do on behalf of each of my friends. 

I have a lot of questions.

And a lot of time to listen.